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We all have certain obstacles that gives us the feeling of: 'This is so unfair!.'
To me it's one of the most annoying feelings in the world because in general we don't really know how to deal with it. One little part of us says: 'Don't whine about it, you are just being jealous.' the other part of you tells you: 'If I didn't have this obstacle or disability I would rule the world!!'
So you bounce around anger, sadness, hopelessness and envy. 
If you were just sad about something or simply angry it would be a lot easier to deal with, you cry or you just vent a bit towards a friend. 
But how to deal with he feeling of unfairness? 

Cloudcatcher by RHADS
:bulletblue: There are many things that can form this unfair obstacle for you.
Physical obstacles such as: MS, Lyme disease, Arthritis, Color blindness, missing fingers?
Mental obstacles such as: Depression, being a procrastinator (yes I'm naming it because it's a mental blockade that keeps you from doing anything!) Insecurity?
Perhaps you're on a medicine that makes you tired all the time?
How about daily life obstacles, like taking care of kids or job responsibilities? 

Greed - MTG by IzzyMedrano
:bulletgreen: One of my personal obstacles is Dyslexia. Yet I am writing these journals. I read all your comments, long and short and try to reply to all of them (even though it might take some time.)
I never got any special treatment in any schools or education. They simply thought I was a slow reader. But I didn't let it beat me. At age 12 I read the whole Lord of the Rings series in English! (not my native language) and I read every Harry potter book in English every time they got released. Long story short, instead to just giving in to the complication of reading, I made it even harder by wanting to read the biggest books in another language. No, it was and is not easy, but I enjoy it! I get this sense of accomplishment by doing it. It should NOT be fair that I would not be able to simply read those books, but it doesn't stop me it empowers me.

Abberation by jeffsimpsonkh
:bulletblue: Ofcourse every situation is different, you cannot simply not be depressed and make art for hours. But how about using your depression to make your art? How about you got MS or 3 fingers on your hand and you still make the best of it by giving it your all. ( I once bought the most amazing acrylic paintings from a man in Morocco who didn't have hands and painted it all by wielding a brush with his mouth.)
There is no failure in these matters only victory. You already lost something by having this disability, anything you can achieve while having this is a victory! 
Don't compare yourself to people who are different or that feeling of unfairness with return. YOU got an obstacle that holds you back, yet YOU still give it your all and make things! 

Red spaceship Speedpainting by erenarik
:bulletblue: Overcoming your obstacles, no matter what form can only be achieved by a state of mind.
And that state of mind is:  'Yes, I am different, but this is my goal and I will do everything I can to achieve it. Doesn't matter if I fully reach that goal or if it takes me a long time. What matters is, that i'm doing it and I will not be held back.'

I know a fair bunch of artists with obstacles, heck most of us have them. Yet they thrive and sometimes even become the best!

Have you ever played basketball with someone in a wheelchair who loves it? Well I did and I totally got my ass kicked, even though I played it for years.
That acrylic painting I mentioned from the man with no hands? Totally beats me to it as well.

I am dyslectic, but I totally got you to read this ;)

All my other journals:
The 5 bullshit myths of concept art.Concept art is getting bigger and bigger. More people know what it is nowadays, it gets shown in the media more often and more books get released. This automatically results into more people wanting to become concept artists. So many artschools are now creating special courses all towards game art or concept art. (Game art can also include UI design, 3D modeling etc.).
Yet it is a fairly new thing to most people and the idea of "becoming a concept artist" has grown rapidly over such a short time that a lot of people who are new to it seem to get a lot of misguide info. I am going to try to list this misguided info and direct you to the correct info.
(Again I would always advise you to do your own research and form your own knowledge and not just simply agree with what you read online, not from anyone, not from me. Even though i'm right ;) .. ofcourse. :P *wink *wink )
  Are you on the right track? + Fuck Talent!Am I on the right track?
This is a thing people often wonder and think it's a complicated to find out, but it is actually pretty simple. It's a different question you need to ask yourself based on different topics.
As for: Fuck talent! You'll find it if you scroll down :P
:bulletblue: Topic 1: Am I on the right track to becoming a better artist?
Does your work from today, look closer to your initial goal than your work from last week? (this needs to be both in skill and idea.)
:bulletgreen: Good skills: Honing your technique, training you muscle memory, being more knowledgeable about your tools and art rules. With art rules I mean: Perspective, form, light, texture, composition.
:bulletgreen: Good ideas: Storytelling, characteristics, charm, emotion and design. Not just making things look polished but also convey something more, something that brings it to life and speaks to pe
How to win Art-contests! (+ Caldyra winners!)Let me start by saying how incredibly happy I am with all these amazing and inspiring entries! This definitely calls for doing another such contest soon!
Most of you have really tried their best and it shows! I couldn't have asked for better or more, choosing the winners among these was already aching my brains.
This journal will show the winners and the special mentions but also a bit about how to higher your changes on winning contests (maybe good for the next one).
This was my contest for those interested:

How to win contests?!
The change on winning a contest always gets smaller based on the amount of people joining in, however this doesn't mean that your work will be diminished by the numbers.
Here is a list of tips and tricks to make sure that your work gets into the top 10 !
:bulletblue: Triple read the contest's description. Make sure you got every detail right.
In this case it was pretty important that the Skyworm loo
A big black hole called: Procrastination.Procrastination is an infinite cycle that becomes bigger and bigger the longer it's there and the time wasted being sucked into it is a dark matter of nothing.
:P hahah I figured this was the most dramatic way to put it, but yeah, it's real and it sucks.
For those who don't know what it means: Procrastination is the practice of carrying out less urgent tasks in preference to more urgent ones, or doing more pleasurable things in place of less pleasurable ones, and thus putting off impending tasks to a later time, sometimes to the "last minute" before the deadline.
We all suffer from procrastination. It is pretty innocent when you have it with household chores or packing your suitcase before you go on a holiday. 
But it becomes a serious problem when you do it with the important things in your life. I take it you're an artist if you're reading this and the biggest aim of being an artist is to be an even better one.
As shown in previous journals there are many
What to do as an artist in training.There are many ways to Rome they say. But I meet a lot of aspiring artists lost and asking me for guidance
and this is what I tell them.
(This is a revisited version of an old journal with new and updated guidelines/info)
Find out what you really want to do with art, there are so many different professions or hobbies to take on.
Graphic designer, Concept artist (mobile and high end), Illustrator of book covers or for card games and so much more.
Once you can make your pick, or at least pick 1 or 2 you must do research on the most valued artwork from that niece. 
Find out what makes the best artist of your favorite field the best artist. What do they paint? How do they paint it? With knowing this you can find out about the things you need to study.

The most basic study aims are the following:

:bulletblue: Lighting.
What forms of light art there? And how does it influence things?
The book Color and Light by James Gurney will
Where to get started before you can apply for workThere is no such thing as suddenly knowing when you are ready to turn your
passion into your profession. But there is a way of measuring your chances on being
able to get work and eventually sustain a living from it.
Accepting commissions or freelance for low payment won't help you. You can think any penny counts, but it will lower the worth of your work and damage the market.
:bulletblue: How to measure that you are ready?
You probably have high goals, but they are usually not your first step. You must search out the clients who can be that first step. Often found in the card game industry, book cover illustrations and smaller game company's. 
Look at the artwork shown by a company such as the card game company: Fantasy Flight games. Compare your skills with the average of their artworks. If it matches yours, you will have a chance. However, keep in mind that those artworks had been done in a limited timeframe, usually within 12 hour
This is why you (and your art) get ignored.People often get the sense of being ignored in the art-scene, especially here online. We all try so hard to get our foot in the door, it's like trying to stuff yourself in an overfull bus like a sardine in a can.
Sometimes you just want to socialize with other artists you admire and you seem to be talking into a brick wall or perhaps you've send your portfolio to a company over a dozen times and still don't even seem to get the smallest response or feedback. I will try and tell you WHY you get ignored and HOW you can get noticed instead.
I will go through the following cases of being ignored:
:bulletgreen: Your comment.
:bulletgreen: Your art.
:bulletgreen: Your Portfolio.
:bulletyellow: Do know, that even though being ignored feels very personal it's hardly ever personal at all! 
:bulletblue: Your comment(s) gets ignored.
It happens ever so often. You notice an artwork or a discussion and you weigh in with your opinion or admiration, perhaps even some feedback? T
The problematic behavior of online artists.There is a bunch of things online artist do terribly wrong on a regular basis. Some of it might be directly aimed to you and some might be things you from others. 
:bulletblue: Way too little time spend on painting/practice.
:bulletblue: People making nit pick pointers.
:bulletblue: The extreme fuzz about labels and methods.
:bulletblue: Witch-hunting/ talking smack.
However I'd like to start with a totally opposite note:
This year I've also experienced great support from the art community for which I'm dearly grateful for.
:icontituslunter: got me an amazing birthday gift(video), made by him and fellow awesome artists:
And the support I've had this past week with the event of my sisters death has been incredibly helpful. (Thank you for all the donations, there are no more worries about money anymore thanks to you awesome people!)

:bulletred: (most of) You seem to spend way to li
Don't let the crap of the internet brainwash you.warning: This journal is my opinion and my view on things. I support open-mindedness and the possibility of anything.
The internet is full of it: People with strong opinions. Usually about 'how to do things' and 'how to absolutely not do things'.
Ask any given person this question: What is good art?
They will all give you a different answer and some of those answers are waaaay to specific for their own good.
Meaning they have a very specific view on what is good and see other work that does not meet up those qualifications as: bad, fake or cheating.
It is natural to have a preference toward certain topics or techniques when making art, but it's wrong to push those ideas upon others as a set of rules. (kinda like forcing someone into a religion)
Art should be a free medium for people to express themselves, even if this means their work goes against your standards or deems unpleasant for your taste.
(Child pornography, animal cruelty etc not included, there are limits to

The stuff that artists go through.There are so many pro's and con as to being an artist, professional or as a hobby. 
It feels nice to be able to express yourself through something you make and when that something turns out to be looking good we get this sense of accomplishment. 
Most of the time though there are bad feelings mixed with the good ones.
:bulletblue: Not being understood. Those moments where your friends or family does not understand that you have to desire to be alone and work on your art. Those copious amounts of hours you spend working and they wonder why you wouldn't rather be outside relaxing in the sun or hang out with your friends.
The only people who will ever fully understand this are other artists or simply very understandable people. It's important they they will eventually understand so there wont be any hurt feelings. Try to explain ti as calmly and rational as you can, perhaps with using examples in terms they would understand.

  Overcome your unfair obstacles.We all have certain obstacles that gives us the feeling of: 'This is so unfair!.'
To me it's one of the most annoying feelings in the world because in general we don't really know how to deal with it. One little part of us says: 'Don't whine about it, you are just being jealous.' the other part of you tells you: 'If I didn't have this obstacle or disability I would rule the world!!'
So you bounce around anger, sadness, hopelessness and envy. 
If you were just sad about something or simply angry it would be a lot easier to deal with, you cry or you just vent a bit towards a friend. 
But how to deal with he feeling of unfairness? 

:bulletblue: There are many things that can form this unfair obstacle for you.
Physical obstacles such as: MS, Lyme disease, Arthritis, Color blindness, missing fingers?
Mental obstacles such as: Depression, being a procrastinator (yes I'm naming it because it's a mental blockade that keeps you fro
Fast lane to becoming a better artist.I often get this very question: How did you get this good this fast?

Now as I consider myself not being as good as people tell me, even struggling quite often with being an artist in general. 
I do know how to get better and how to reach it fast. I'm still growing as I go and it's the main thing that keeps me going.
You need to get into the right mindset and the rest will follow. With the rest I mean:
1. Willpower.
2. Endurance.
3. Positive energy.
4. The NEED to draw.
:bulletblue: Seeing growth in your work gives you the courage to work harder. You know that feeling when you're just about done with an image
and feel like this image is better than your last one, that great feeling. Use it!
:bulletblue: Do studies! Lots of them!! Make film shot studies, live object studies, master-painting studies. They will teach you a lot about composition, lighting, colors, shapes storytelling etc. 
You will hardly notice that you are learning thing
Why it's so important to unite as artists.We are with many though yet we are with few. We're all divided over little subgroups such as, fantasy illustrators, concept artists, comic book pencilers, photomanipers, techartists, anime drawers, realism sketchers etc. You might even find your place at multiple sections.
I found that the biggest united groups on Deviant Art are mostly evolved around fan art, such as Sonic, or My little pony. 
Observations aside, I think the good thing about those groups is that they serve for companionship. Being an artist all by yourself with no one to share/talk about/discuss your work with can feel rather lonely. And that lonely feeling is not encouraging at all. Most of us keep a lot of things taboo as well, like techniques or rates. If we were more openly with these the changes of being underpaid or missing out on a job because someone else does it for hardly any money at all will grow slimmer. People should know what they are worth and not be afraid to ask for it.
When I joined Deviant Art
Are you being honest with yourself?As part of becoming good at something you need to be able to reflect upon yourself. Judge your own abilities and work and consider the possibility that what ever you have been doing it wrong all along. Or perhaps you're actually being to hard on yourself and you're better than your conscious is telling you. (This is bad too because it leads to insecurities.)

Signs that you might overestimate your current skills.
Do you often feel these things when you look upon work from good artists?:
I can totally do this too.
This is not so hard, I can do this faster.
My work is way more interesting.
It's not fair that this person gets way more attention than I do.
Why am I not being recognized for my skills.
This other technique is cheating! (photo-bashing, using reference, filters, effects etc)
I don't need to draw and learn all day to become this good.
I spend 2 hours on a painting, Masterpiece!!
Signs that you might underestimate your skills.
Do you ofte
When someone brings your art down...Putting our art out there makes us very vulnerable, especially when you've made something close to your heart. Perhaps something of your own fantasy, a story, a fan fiction your passionate about?
As much as most of us really want to improve, we also simply want to make art because we love it and when we share it there is a slight hope there is someone out there who will love it too.
There are all kinds of ways other people can bring you down by saying something about your art, or by doing nothing at all! Perhaps YOU are even part of making someone feel down and you're not realizing it!

:bulletblue: The harsh critique.
This person might want to help you or simply likes to bring you down. In either case this person will write in length about your lack of technique, uniqueness and/or skill. 
:bulletred: Respond option: Thanks but no thanks! Tell this person you appreciate the time spend on their post, but you rather hear constructive c
How to deal with or get feedback.Getting feedback or critiques may be hard for people.
Some people want it really bad but can't seem to get it, at least not from the people he/she is hoping for.
And other get it all the time but feel a little attacked or bullied by it.
Pretty much anyone with eyes and some intelligence is able to spot mistakes or irregularities in someone's work. This person doesn't have to be more skilled than you. 
However, this person... might be wrong.... 
:bulletpurple: How do you judge a critique?
You initially made your artwork according to the knowledge you currently have. Leaving room for mistakes in the elements you're not trained or knowledgeable in. Or perhaps you think you know something and you are not aware that it's wrong.
When someone gives you feedback, even though it might feel incorrect. Take a little time to do some extra research on the matter. 
:bulletblue: You can ask others if they agree with someone's feedback.
:bulletblue: You can search online (with anat
So tired of not achieving what you want?So tired of not achieving what you want?

Everyone has something they really want dearly, a career, to have a certain loved one, to be able to make certain things...
The most common one among us artist are:
- I want to be able to draw better
- I want to be able to draw like "this"person.
- I want to earn money with my drawing.
- I want to be able to draw what I imagine in my head.
- I want more people to appreciate my art.
- I want more feedback from artists I admire.
- I want more..
- I want better....
All this wanting.. dreaming of... hoping for.
How about doing it!! With these sort of "wants", it's a matter of DOING IT!
How? You ask?
There are many ways, but the usual and only answers to those desires are: 
- Spend the most time you have on drawing/painting.
- Go and ask people for help, it is okay to do so!
- Look at that amazing artwork and try and figure out how this person made it, perhaps he/she will tell you? Perhaps this person has made a video or tutoria
Avoid getting ripped off by a client.As a freelancer most of your business takes place online, which makes it really easy
for people to rip you off. How many times have we seen the following scenario's:
1- Someone offers a descent payment for your artwork but wants you to do an art-test first.
after the art-test you're being told you're not good enough. Later you find out that other people
got to do different art-test topics and also weren't good enough. The client clearly ripped people off to get free artwork.
2- Someone offers good money for your artwork. The sketch gets approved so you continue working. Right when it's done the total image suddenly becomes a great disappointment and the client ends up not paying you.
These were just 2 examples of situations that happen a lot to freelancers. There are many more like it.
:bulletblue: How to detect if a client is a bit fishy...
Does their email address look professional? Some legit people may use their Gmail address, with their real name or nickname, those are questionabl

The emotional shield that prevents hurt.Being an artist = Being sensitive.
We all know it. Making something and then showing it out there makes you very vulnerable, emotionally.
What if people think it's shit? What if they think it's weird... what will they think? Will that reflect on how they think of me as a person?
I know what some of you are thinking right now... 'You should care less about what people think of you or you art.'
In a sense you are right.. than again, you SHOULD care what people think of you and your art! They are your market and potential clients.
It's easier when you're already doing your dream job and couldn't care less for other potential directions... but most of us will always stay interested in new opportunities.
They= Everyone who see your personality and/or artwork.

Being an artist = Being lonely.
Artists of a certain type tent to stick together. Industry veterans seems to ignore the public eye and the internet fully. Some artists in the making clut
Being a miserable artist = being a bad artist.I recently felt it being one of the most important things, not just for an artist; being happy with what you do. No one wants to get up every morning thinking.. shit .. another work day. Of course there can be days, maybe even a full week of that, but the majority of your time you should be feeling content and happy even.
With that lack of love and enthusiasm it is most likely reflected into your work.

Now it's not always your own fault that your work doesn't make you happy and doesn't feed your creative monster. But it can be in these cases.
You make your OWN workday miserable when:
:bulletblue: If you don't speak your mind and stand up for your opinion and values.
:bulletblue: If you're not open minded regarding feedback and new techniques.
:buletblue: If you don't aim for improvement. (though aiming for perfecting all the time can be stressful)
:bulletblue: when you allow yourself to work under stressful circumstances for too long.
These are
Timing fucking matters.Time does a lot of things, it makes you older, it gets you to places, it never stops going forward. However you control when and how you use it!
Everyone makes choices on a daily bases, most of them are actually done with your auto-pilot function out of habit.

Most people usually sit in the same spot on the couch, chooses what to wear based on previously made combinations and so on, unless they consciously become aware of their action and might decide it's time for a change. It can be a small thing that makes people aware of their options
You can count that pretty much every person out there works like this and YOU often depend on THEIR choices.
My point of this journal is saying: Use this in your advantage!
Time can be compared to a diet. Eating to much bad stuff will make you unhealthy and feel bad, while eating healthy things will keep you going and feel good. So time can either make you feel stuck in one place, maybe even going backwards (ageing already does that for you) or
Things I learned at: The Industry Workshops 2014Holy shit amazeballs... this past weekend....
But let me start of by shortly telling you what the industry workshops actually were.
(The artwork in this journal are from some of the lecturers.)
:bulletblue: What is: #IW_14?
The Industry workshops took place last weekend August 29 to 31 2014, at 2 venues both located at Hoxton Square, London United Kingdom.
It was organized and hosted by a group of industry professionals in the fields of concept art, matte painting and illustration in film, games and freelance.
Let me name the people that profited the lectures and demo's from 10 in the morning to 8 in the evening, ending with a 1+ hour QA session as seen on the picture below.

(Not in the same order as the picture)
Alex Brady, Alex Heath, Alex Negea, Andrei Riabovitchev, Björn Hurri, Dave Neale, emrah elmasli, Jama Djurabeav, Jon McCoy, Jonas De Ro, Kan Muftic, Levi Peterffy, Mark tompkins, Nadia Mogile
When inspiration is far to be found...We all get these anoying times when we really want to make something cool, get inspired and work that magic. We see everyone around us (online) do it, but how come we are not?
So we look for ways to get inspired, we ask around, find these usual answers: go watch a film, listen to music.. take a walk...
But even when we do that, we still end up stuck most of the time.
Part of the solution is knowing WHY we get stuck and this is my theory.

:bulletblue: ADT - Attention Deficit Trait.
'Experiencing an inner frenzy of distractability, impatience, difficulty in setting priorities, staying focused and managing time. Those are our biggest enemies as they all end up cluttering your head and keeping you from spending quality focused time on a singular topic.
Everything we do now a days is based around multitasking and it is giving us a constant overdose of information. Let me elaborate.
How many of you travel daily by public transport and don't look away
A simple guide on: Commissioning an Artist.It's often not as simple as one wants it to be when both artist and client want it to be: Cost efficient, time efficient and quality efficient.
I've often spend my time discussing the best way to handle commissions with clients and artist friends that I came to the conclusion that clarity and understanding is key.
I will divide the guidelines I work with based on 3 commission types.
:bulletblue: Character commissions.
:bulletblue: Book covers ( or illustrations)
:bulletblue: Concept art.
Reading all 3 parts will give you the full scope as a lot of it applies to one another as well.

:bulletgreen: Character commissions.
:bulletblue: 1. Reference board.
If you as a client have very specific characteristic features all set and done for your character it can be very useful for the artist if you'd make them a reference board of art and photos that portray these things.
:bulletblue: 2. Personality.
The artist does not wish for a life story of your cha
The Key to keeping yourself motivated properly.Let me start off with telling you what motivation is and why you need it.
A motivation is a reason behind doing something a certain way to work yourself up to a certain goal. Just having a goal but no understanding of how to get there, means you have no way to motivate yourself and your goal will be hard to reach. 
Therefore motivation is needed desperately in order to become truly good at something.
The motivation to eat is the feeling for hunger and the end goal of ending the hunger and feeling healthy and energized. This type of motivation is a feeling. 
Which brings me to: Intrinsic motivation and Extrinsic motivation.
Shortly explained:
Intrinsic motivation: Is a drive that comes from within the person itself. It's a self-desire to seek out new things and new challenges to see how far you can reach to observe and to gain knowledge. This person can enjoy the struggle towards a goal absent the reward. 
Extrinsic motivation: This is a motivatio

Thanks for all the comments! I will do my best to reply to most of them, even if it sometimes takes a while, reading these always cheers me up a lot! :D (Big Grin)

Wanna ask me direct questions? Come hang with me on Twitch sometime where I paint and give feedback :)

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Disclaimer: The artwork posted in my journals are not made by me but artists I admire. This is my way of sharing their incredibly work with the rest of you. All these journals are based on my personal experience and that of artist friends. English is my second language and I have dyslexia so do note I am prone to make mistakes. I write these journals to remind myself of the things I've learned.

Thank you!
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AbyssalRadiance Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2016  Student General Artist
I agree, there are many amazing things that people can do (like the mouth-painter you mentioned) despite problems.
There is nothing wrong with this journal, and I've read a bunch of your others today, but I must say something about this particular topic:

Every obstacle is different for different people. Give the same obstacle to 5 different people with different personalities, lives, experiences, etc.
3 of them may each find their own way to figure it out and get past it. One might struggle and constantly relapse to where they are stopped by the obstacle again and again. One might not be able to fix that obstacle at all.
I'm being hypothetical here of course.
My point is, everyone has different amounts of resourcefulness and resilience. Not everyone can handle the same things.

A death in the family may make someone grieve, but they can move on...where, for someone else, it might destroy them entirely, for example.
Trying to come up with ways to explain this, and failing lol
Basically...what is possible for one person, may not be possible for someone else, and for those people struggling with things who are unable to get past their issues for whatever personal reason, something like this might make them feel guilty, rather than motivated.

Other than that, you have perfect intentions. Please DO NOT think I am trying to insult you and bring down this post, but rather give a different perspective on it. Please don't get angry or offended :saddummy:
As I said, I've read a bunch of your other journals today, ones you've linked like in here; you talk a lot of real talk that many people aren't able to say.
Bubblegumdove Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Miss, speaking as an Englishman, you put english language to better use than most of my countrymen. :)
RedRose206 Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is amazing.
Inspiring, motivational, and a perfect way to pull anyone out of the dumps.
jasonknightmartin Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow, that almost made me cry. Very touching and Inspiring!!
ForgottenAmnesty Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014  Student Digital Artist
There was a fellow I had heard of through some friends and they showed me his works. They were very good pencil sketches that would make you feel like you were peeping through a door into the world of the drawing. He was paralysed from the neck down, yet he still drew and was very good at it. I myself have some problems.

I'm close to being blind and I am blind without my glasses. I have always had poor vision since I was a little child, and I started drawing at under a year old. For me, I suppose, it was always that way, so I really have no comparison to know if it would be easier to draw if I could see better. I draw through feeling more than seeing, I guess. With digital, it is much easier to get the details in, but with traditional, I could always feel where to put things.

I suppose we all have our various obstacles to work with, pressures to be like that great artist and physical disabilities can all work against you, but as you have said: don't look at it as something to hold you back, but put it as a challenge in your mind. Art comes from the heart, so let it free and don't worry too much about the result.
marbearcarebear Featured By Owner May 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're probably the most inspirational journalist on here. I'm on the fence about what art career I want to pursue (there's no way that i WON'T be doing art) but I often doubt myself due to lack of training and just general low self esteem. I really needed to read this. Thank you <3

(I also am dyslexic! It's getting better now, but I couldn't even read simple words until I was in second grade! I kind of forced myself to get better in fourth grdae--I read Homer's Oddessy. It was a headache and a half, but I love reading now~ It's really interesting to find someone with similar experiences and struggles!)
AliceSacco Featured By Owner May 8, 2014   Digital Artist
The thing that I consider worst as ostacle is my 'hatred' toward writing. Probably because my hands hurted easily at school, even if I haven't reading issues. I can create stories and I know how to create stories, their structure etc... but I don't enjoy writing. But if I want to do my comics I must learn to write them too.

Phisical (psicological) ostacle was autism and all related troubles, so you have to find solution to work efficently without getting disturbed with all problem (to me is hard to see in real life for example, things appear confused, so I learn to draw from a screen instead. What is on screen, both photos or movies, are clearer to my eyes). I tried to copy from real life but some days I can't figure what is in front of me, other days I can copy just fine.
Autism made me face-blind for long time, I overcame this and now I can create different faces. I still have provblem to read facial expressions (I can read well only facial expressions that stay in the happy range).

Another problem I had is my bad hand-eye coordination. For long time I felt a little bit awkward  with my hand. I Improved a lot by starting to use my other hand too. I developed almost full ambidexterity in just few days, alongside with a better hand-eye coordination, and I was already 25 years old, and being able to use both my hands allows me to be more precise.

Luckily I don't have dyslexia. The cool thing about not having dyslexia is that every language is the same to me. My native language is a very shallow language (is sounds almost as is written), but if I have to read deep languages like english, to me is exactly the same thing.
Honestly I think English is fairly better from my language. My language (italian) was build by intellectuals (like Dante), and they wanted a language that sounded poetic, but is not a good language for everyday speech, in fact to me is very easy to misunderstand what is said or to not understand at all. Italian is easy to read, but difficult to understand. English is more for everyday speech and is clearer.
ThiaminaTenn Featured By Owner May 5, 2014   Digital Artist
Your journals are always so good, I would've never expected that you have dyslexia! I love to read them!
I mean, I always think "oh god, my english is so bad, but,'s not my native language" I guess, it's no longer an excuse! :D I wish I could write and communicate in english as good as you do! *_*
CrimsonMagpie Featured By Owner May 5, 2014   Traditional Artist
Very inspiring and true as always! Like your last journal I can empathise since I have diabetes, and when my blood sugar levels are too high (something that happens all to easily if I'm not careful) I get very lethargic and find it almost impossible to concentrate properly, and my work always suffers considerably as a result. It's especially frustrating when I've a deadline and have no option to stop and recover, but just have to carry on, knowing I'm doing a sub-par job. :crying:
StormNinjaKapow Featured By Owner May 4, 2014
There is so much wisdom to draw in from this journal. Every word is inspiring, and every advice heartfelt. Thank you so much for sharing this piece of art with us.
toxkillfraex Featured By Owner May 4, 2014   Digital Artist
There's a guy with dwarfism in my class... Kuddo's to him for trying to achieve something art like despite his obviously somewhat less functional fingers. (He learned to deal with it that much is clear, but I don't know him well enough to know whether his body type actually bothers him or not) And he's fully capable of driving a car with proper adaptations to make everything accessible for him. (It's a cool looking ride as well)

Fun result from this: If we're told to design a character based on ourselves a big round dwarf comes out with him. Haven't seen the end result though.
And he's a nice challenge when we have to draw eachother.

(kinda feel guilty for staring at him every time I saw him last year, but when he's a daily presence you just get used to the difference)
ChIandra4U Featured By Owner May 4, 2014   General Artist
Great journal Suzanne
DenaHelmi Featured By Owner May 4, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
very interesting article  as always  Clap Clap Clap 
Anmaril Featured By Owner May 4, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
You've got me to read it yes :D
A good one, besides that I tend to argue about my obstacles from time to time, it is always better just to face them, and do the best.
Priestess-Of-Dragons Featured By Owner May 3, 2014
wow..this is ..really empowering !
and well I kinda get the dyslexia thing... I have dyscalculia    ... it's something like that but then with math
People thought I was stupid all the time ..for a long while I thought so too ... Until i got dignosed with dyscalculia when I was 14.
my teacher kept saying " you need to do this excersice this way"  and then I was like " I know !  I just can't DO it"   ... 
so yeah ... I get you
Sylver-Star-Shyne Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014  Student General Artist
I'm the same way with math, I have to get my husband to help me with it whenever I have it to do. I had to go to summer school and have a special tutor for most of high school it's so bad x.x Unfortunately I was never diagnosed and was always accused of just not wanting to do it or not caring if I learned or not :XD: Most of my artistic blocks though are purely mental/psychological, I can remember bringing drawings to my mom and for a while I couldn't do anything wrong, but after a while as I started getting interested in drawing things besides real world animals, she got more and more critical and now it's really hard for me to show anything I draw. Most of what I've drawn has been finished and not seen the light of day since I finished it, most of the time once I finish something even I don't look at it again.
Priestess-Of-Dragons Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014
well I always say that drawing and playing music are the only things I don't completely suck at 
school was hell eventhough they diagnosed me ... the teachers couldn't care less.  my step dad hates my drawings .... well nothing I do is "good enough " in his eyes
so I stopped showing my drawings too .  that's why I ( after long nagging from my best friend :p ) made a dA page ... to show my drawings without people knowing who I am. I've been here nearly a year and people are so supportive and ... they seem to like most of my art ( well most people  ;p )  My religious grandmother calls my drawings and the music I listen to and play devil art ... so I get how you feel with the critical people
but ... I took the liberty to go look at your art *blush*  and I really love your drawings
I think you at least should try and look at them. I didn't do that either at first ... but when i started doing that I was like " hey I could do this better  ' or " wow I've improved a lot "  and that way you kinda motivate yourself ... maybe you could try that sometime  .
Sylver-Star-Shyne Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014  Student General Artist
Well, I'm slowly starting to get some of that worked out, I mean, I went back through a few old drawings a day or two ago and realized just how much my style had changed along with everything else. I'm definitely better than I was a few years ago. Still a lot of room for improvement tho for sure :XD:
God, so know what you mean about religious people, my mom is a religious basket case, she came to pick me up from my dad's once and found me playing Halo, and I just about never heard the end of it X.X It did not help that she picked the worst possible cut scene of Halo2 to walk in on :XD:
I took a bit of a looky through your gallery too, I really like your stuff :meow: I'll take more time when I have it, right now I'm cramming on a drawing for a friend lol ^^ I decided to watch you, just because I enjoy seeing new drawings and different styles :) Maybe we could trade ideas sometime too, I'm always up for suggestions :meow: 
AhstTraotee Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm almost curious to ask which cutscene of the game she walked in on. xD
Sylver-Star-Shyne Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2015  Student General Artist
The sad part was that it wasn't bad, she was just overly sensitive. I had pretty much just started the game, set in getting into the story mode, and she walks in, classic case of parent going omfg-wtf-you're-going-to-hell for no obvious reason :dead: So in point of fact, I guess what I really mean is it was the worst scene for oversensitive parent to see without knowing the story :XD: Still, the part that did and still kind of does grind my gears the most was she was literally hours earlier than she should have been showing up in the first place.
Priestess-Of-Dragons Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2014
small steps are amazing :)
hehehehe goodie ! I'll watch you too and hope I get some great ideas lolz
Sylver-Star-Shyne Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2014  Student General Artist
Yes, and a lot easier than trying to do everything at once that's for sure :meow: I've made a few great friends here over the years who have helped out wit hall that as well and looking forward to making more :)
hehe We can give each other ideas :D
Clock--Heart Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hah, I've got dyslexia and reading is also a pain for me. But I always take my time to read your journals because I know good feelings are coming my way!
rujiidragon Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Student General Artist
I really love your journals. You write better english than me and this is my only language!
JoeyJulian Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
:clap: Great read and thank you for taking the time to share!
XxAlluringsongxX Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Student General Artist
I don't really have a problem like being deaf or blind but I know it's hard for others. Some feel annoyed when people try to help them because they don't like seeming helpless. I used to have a chance of going blind but my family helped me out and in the end, I'm not blind. This journal made me become more aware of these problems. I hope people with problems like bad medicine, blindness, deafness, etc. get the help they need. I know deafness, blindness, really unlucky life, etc. aren't the only problems, but I couldn't name them all there is so many. That's just sad ; ;
mopeyghost Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for this journal.

I've dyslexia problem too. In france at school if you make too much faults in writting you loose points. And going to a special doctor to help etc. I suffer a lot about that, but when a I started to draw I have created my own language with images and life started to be more easy. and I started to learn other language, I hope one day find one who is in harmony with my mind. :)
ROBBERT-J Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Every kid who can't do things like reading as fast as the entire class has "dyslexia" it's complete bull, they wanna put a name on everything. Some people are better in some thing than others. :o
DaddyHoggy Featured By Owner May 3, 2014
Are you saying Dyslexia doesn't exist? Or that it's used as a convenient label by educators (or more often parents) to explain why their pupils/children are not doing as well as they hoped/expected.
ROBBERT-J Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I don't want to speak for every case but in my case everything went way to fast. I got a few bad grades in elementary and you are dyslectic for life. 
And then in middle school you are the best in languages and writing but still everyone around you doesn't have Dyslexia, it doesn't seem right.

There's even a Southpark episode about ADD that people put syndromes and labels on things pretty fast. 
I'm not sure it exists or not if there is proof that there is something going on in the brain.
What do you think ? : p
DaddyHoggy Featured By Owner May 3, 2014
Well, I have a 12 year old daughter, who, until she was nine, could not read. The words, as she described them, moved around on the page as she tried to read them. Nor could she write (very well), the effort of of trying to draw the letters of the alphabet was enough to give her a headache so painful that sometimes she was physically sick with the effort.

We are fortunate, we live not far from here:… and we had the funds to pay for a clinical diagnosis, a series of tests designed to show aberrations in the mechanism between hand -> eye -> brain in a way that does not involve reading and writing (at least not at first).

When my daughter was tested, aged nine, she had the reading age of that expected of a four year old, although her ability to understand complex problems was that expected of a fourteen year old.

She had managed to get to age nine before anybody started to notice, including me, because she loved to be read stories, and to listen to audiobooks and it turns out, her gift, her coping mechanism was (and still is) to memorise what she hears.

Although she's only 12 and studying normally at school, albeit given extra time to read through the exam questions, she's also studying AS level drama (normally studied when you're 17/18) learning her lines by listening to the audio of the piece or reading very slowly, wearing her blue glasses, her lines.

So yes, I think dyslexia exists. :)
MrFasfer Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Who we are is a product of everything good and bad that happened in our lives. This process is delicate that I can say for sure that if you was lucky to miss any obstacles you wouldn't been who you are now. I feel good I read this journal. Thank you.
oO-Monkey-Oo Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Hobbyist
Without obstacles we would never test our character. We would simply be spoiled to wit's end.
 How's it go.. "Do not pray for en easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one."
 There is no growth without adversity.
 No good without the bad. 
 No light without the darkness :)
 Thanks for the morning inspiration! Cheers
Mishai Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
hmm world is not made to be fair....people can try avoid face that fact or try even harder to denny that ... but in my point of view...hell lets just deal with it and acept it...there are people better then me:) there are people with even worse odds better then amaizing artists you mentioned ...but world is not a conctest to be very is not about be very best:) behind all those money making crap it is something what makes us feel great what express our feelings what we do for fun ... and when comes to fun, there is no need to be best:) just to do what you like...
BalloonPrincess Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Hobbyist Filmographer
If you never try, then you'll never fly.  :)
Avondrood Featured By Owner May 3, 2014
Well written, again :) 
Thank you for the motivating journals :D
It's nice to hear that other people are struggling aswell and still be able to get where they want to be. 
FoxideArt Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
great read Suzanne :) 
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